BPD/DBT Diary/Journal Entry May 7th:
2 min readMay 7, 2021
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- I didn’t write yesterday because I wasn’t coherent enough to write. The seroquel works quite well with the cannabis and the adderall. I’m groggy today, but much more coherent.
- I’m sitting in a tub, smoking a joint, listening to Nirvana covers and I couldn’t be happier. Even though I am in pain and I’m trying hard to raise money for my medical marijuana treatment. I reconnected with Mark and Sky and I had forgotten how close I had gotten with Sky. I wish I had gotten close enough to Mark to get him to understand what I am (a Communist). How do you tell a constitutionalist that you’re a Communist and not have it get personal?
- How do you remain friends with anyone with a conservatives view?
- I don’t understand why things are the way they are. Reality is so distorted that up is down, political left is center, republics are democracy and capitalism is imperialism and greed. I’m so disenfranchised my reality that even food isn’t food. In other countries, everything seems as it should for the most part.
- In America, social media is how we tell the truth that the news and educators aren’t. Name a black teacher you’ve had. Not many can. Did your grade school teachers tell you about John Brown?
- The United States isn’t America. America is a movement that the United States hijacked from religious refugees, native Americans and the slaves forced to build this country for the wealthy and elite.
- Radicalizing someone else against the system that has constitutional values that I admire such as the patriot act, which I disagree with as a socialist but as a Communist, I believe full surveillance and permanent cameras should be placed on every block, no person should be harassed by police with this many cameras. I also believe we need mediators and not police. We need emergency services for emergencies not domestic crimes and small crimes. Guns shouldn’t be in any officer’s hands. I believe in Communist governmental militias to handle dangerous situations regarding hand guns and hunting rifles. No one needs an atomic bomb, no one needs a high powered machine gun unless there military
